Fall oh Fall where are you????

I am really beginning to wonder where Fall is not that I'm ungrateful for the lovely hot weather we are having but I am starting to get tired of the hot weather...I would love to be able to turn off my air conditioner instead of having to run it constantly...I can't just turn it off without some help from the weather because we live in a metal box but hopefully fingers crossed not much longer but anyways. I needed to walk to a gal's house who is on my visiting teaching route (thank you Damian for walking with me to help me find out where it is) and although it was probably about a mile or so maybe less yesterday it felt like I had walked 100 years...by the time I was half way home again I was parched because of how hot it had suddenly become..so luckily for me we had a pit stop at Damian's parent's house because they were home well Dad was home from school and Damian's cousin Della was there so after a glass of water and a quick visit we were home again. I am hoping that next month it will either be cool enough when I have to walk to her house again OR that I can be listened to and they can understand that the way it is now isn't going to work my mother in law works during the day which is fine and great BUT I'm her visiting teaching companion AND the only gal that will let us come and see her out of the two we currently have is ONLY available to be visited during the day. I think I'm going to have to bring this up and see what they want to do because I also can't just keep visiting her by myself...any suggestions or ideas would be greatly appreciated.

Marathon Yak Session

Despite the fact that I haven't slept much since I got woken up at 1:30 this morning...I'm actually in a good mood. I think a LARGE part of that is due to my best friend and unrelated sister Susan, we had a marathon gab session today lasting 3 hours would have been longer but she had an important call she had to take. We talked about everything but nothing all at the same time I love it when we can do that. She is busy being a mom during the week that and she has Verizon and I feel bad using her minutes up but the weekends are fair game. I miss her so much I have many dear and good friends near and far whom I adore but she is the one that because we have been through so much together that we are "sisters". I was thinking today that if we could ever live near her she and I would tear up the town LOL. I laugh at that thought it's energizing to have such a good friend although lately that's what has been happening all my friends are actually giving me just as much strength and energy as I have been giving to them. I guess that's what happens when relationships are healthy. Here's to friends everywhere but especially the ones where you are like family after awhile.

In the Hollow of Thy Hand

I would be so ungrateful to all the blessings I have received if I didn't acknowledge their source..I have really felt the Lord's presence in every aspect of my life, my husband's life and our life together as a family. We are being asked to walk by faith but we are doing so and finding around every turn where the Lord has guided someone to bless our lives in some new wonderful way. First off Damian's counselor is wonderful it took some time to get him fully started but now the change in him is ginormous and it's been so great to have him be in a better mental state. I feel now that I can lean on my husband as the Priesthood holder in our home and it's a wonderful feeling as a lot of the burden on me has eased. I feel it even as I am listening to the promptings of the Lord to NOT work at this moment in time which is hard to do when my husband isn't working yet...talk about walking in faith. However, as we have prayerfully heeded this counsel and Damian has earnestly prayed about our welfare he is currently being assisted in finding work. We have no doubt that as long as we remain faithful and listen to the Lord he will be guided to work the Lord knows what our needs are. We feel it most profoundly in two major areas...we still can't believe how much we are being helped by the Lord it's more than we had hoped for. We have had to live in sub standard apartments run by slum lords because that was all we could afford until we could get our legs under us enough to not only pay off our bills but our debts too..well that will no longer be a burden. In our ward a gentleman by the name of Bro. Raimeriz and his wife own an apartment complex on the corner of Sprague and Havana. He knows of our situation and how our trailer is literally falling apart so he is willing to do what he can to get us into a two bedroom apartment when our current lease is up. He said he felt compelled to do this for us so we could have a safe place to live and that he is willing to give us the benefit of the doubt that we are good people who got into a bad situation. I'm so thankful to the Lord for working through this man to lift an extremely heavy burden. The rent will be about what we are going to be paying after the first of the year but it won't be a drafty poorly insulated trailer so our power bill will be much less. The last is in our marriage and how willing Damian is to step up to his role of Priesthood holder, husband and provider. I'm so grateful now that I have a great marriage that has been getting better and better and how Damian has been given the strength he needs to take on those roles and to help shoulder my burdens as well as his own. It's because of this that my stress is less and I have not had any anxiety attacks because my dear husband has been able to keep them in check and keep me from freaking out. We are still walking with faith he doesn't have work yet but we also know that the Lord will not forsake us as long as we are pursuing righteous desires. My husband's desire for employment is a good and righteous one and he is working with employment agencies etc to do this part and we know that when that happens we do our part the Lord will cover the rest.

It's official

It's official I got my first Sunbeam stuff today...a class list and a primary lesson schedule for the rest of this year along with info that next month we are having a primary program. This will be the first one I CAN'T hide from but that's okay. I will really enjoy this...my teaching partner has two manuals come to find out and she was at the fair tonight but hopefully we can talk soon and figure out a teaching schedule. I'm happy and excited to be with the kids kids nursery age to Sunbeam age are my favorite...they are still so eager to learn and they are so full of love and energy and excitement and their energy and curiosity don't upset me at all maybe that's why I want to teach in a day care or preschool someday. I will be set apart on Sunday and I can't wait....this is going to be so much fun hard work at times I'm sure but fun work. I feel like I am contributing now to a ward that has been so wonderful to us so loving and giving and kind. I have been praying for a way to pay it back and now I have been given that chance and I am so thankful.

What has gotten into my husband

Today I'm wondering what has gotten into my husband...for weeks upon weeks now I have been after him to get ANY kind of housework done. He has promised me that he would clean the kitchen and do the dishes but nope I had to do them or they wouldn't get done. Well, today I got up to do them and he had me sit back down and he has been cleaning the kitchen top to bottom including the dishes. He's going to work on the rest of the house next so I'm pleasantly surprised. I am wondering if he hasn't been possessed by aliens or something not that I'm complaining. Just for the record I do my fair share but for a long time now every time I would clean he would come along behind me and just mess it up so it was an ever going struggle to keep things cleaned up now that's not so much of a problem anymore he seems to want to clean and want to help me keep this place looking and smelling nice.

Drawing Inspiration

Something told me today to start looking for anniversary songs for Damian's parents and their anniversary...I have never done that before but something told me to do that today so I am. I have found so many wonderful ones starting with the classics sung by Kenny Rogers but I have found some that I have never heard of but they all have a common theme staying together and loving each other even when the times were hard. I think Damian and I could draw a lot of inspiration from these songs....it's so easy to be in love the first little while but then life happens and it can be easy to forget why you came together in the first place. That's where it becomes important to do your best to not let that happen. The last song I found for his parents struck a real chord with me...Damian and I have been together a decade come the end of November that's when I met him was November 1999 I can't believe it's been that long. It has been up and down but I wouldn't trade it for anything...I haven't loved anyone like I have loved him. This song reminds us of that that when we got married it wasn't just that day that we promised each other we would stay married but all the days that followed even when it would get hard and the honeymoon was long over.

Jesus wants me for a Sunbeam

Today was a pretty blah day to be honest I didn't want to get up I didn't want to get showered much less dress up and go to church. I love the Lord and I love my ward but today I was pretty much in the doldrums...well that changed by 3:45 this afternoon. On fast Sundays our ward holds a break the fast potluck at 4 since we usually finish by 3:30 no biggie I was looking forward to eating who doesn't if they are perfectly honest. Well, anyway I had just gotten done with my meeting and I was looking for Damian to get out of his so we could meet up and get a table together..when the bishop approached me and asked me if Bro. Bethel or Bro. Hussin had found me yet and I said "no why" and he said that they needed to talk to Damian and I for a few minutes. The first thing that popped into my head was ut oh what did they need me to do. So anyway, I was asked to be a co teacher for the Sunbeam class and I said yes right away anyone who knows me knows I LOVE children especially the little ones they have so much energy and passion and every discovery and thing is so new and exciting to them. He just looked at me and asked if I was sure that they thought of me and prayed on it and knew I was just the right person because a lot of the mothers in the ward noticed how kind and loving I was to their young toddlers and children. I said "yes, I would LOVE to then I said FINALLY I had been praying for a calling like this for nine years!!!" he laughed and said "okay, then we will set you apart in two weeks since next week is stake conference. I am so excited!!!! I'm going to love this so much. He just wanted Damian in there so that way he knew about my calling and could support me. Today turned right around I went from not wanting to go to being so thankful and grateful that I came.

Sums us up perfectly

I was reading my friend Stephani's blog and this song was playing so naturally I was curious and as I really listened I realized I found the theme song for Damian and I and our relationship. This song sums it up perfectly. We love each other deeply and always have we had an instant chemistry and connection but anyone who has truly been in love knows sometimes there is pain and tears too and things are said that shouldn't have been said but just because that happens doesn't mean you don't still love the person. Damian and I have been there we have said and done things to hurt each other and we even didn't think we could overcome all that but our love did and we feel like we swam an ocean to make it back to each other. In the process we learned to stop taking each other for granted and to stop saying mean and hurtful things just because we were upset and angry. We learned to hang on to each other no matter what adversity life throws at us that we can count on each other. It's amazing I have always loved him so much and I know he has always loved me too but after almost losing our love and our marriage ever since we came back together we see each other in a new way not to say that it has all been roses that's not the case but the way we handle it is different we don't turn on each other the moment things get hard we come together and handle it as a team as a family. Damian and I have a passionate relationship and sometimes that means that we argue passionately too we are just passionate people with strong opinions but I wouldn't trade him for anything or anyone he has truly blessed my life.