Alright time to get refocused

I was just talking with a friend of mine about my goals going into this new year and she suggested I write them down. I think I can go a step further and by writing them down here I am counting on you my dear friends and family to keep my accountable and to help me keep focused. I know what my fatal error was I had fallen back into my old habits of trying to help everyone else and take care of everyone else and of everything. Before I know it I am sucked into all their issues and concerns to the point where I feel hopeless to help or do anything and I turn to food more importantly sugar and empty carbs to help comfort me. They don't do anything good so what I am going to do is this year I'm going to take a step back and take care of me and my health my PCOS isn't going to take care of itself and to be frankly honest some things won't change or correct themselves simply because I'm involved or not involved so I might as well get serious this year and do this right. That being said and done here are the things I want to accomplish in the next 12 months.

1) Get back to the basics of counting and tracking my calories and food intake again all day every day
2) Reduce fast food, empty calories, sugar and simple carbs
3) Increase my fiber intake 
4) Increase the amount of water I drink
5) Exercise at my target heart rate daily for as long as I can stand it gradually increasing my stamina and endurance
6) Keep a balance in my life and keep reminding myself that it is not selfish of me to want to take care of myself and my welfare and well being. 

A not so proud moment......

I was doing great I was chugging along I was so excited about my progress then well I fell off the bandwagon. One thing I had not accounted for in my plan for a healthier lifestyle was what I would do if life got hectic and crazy and emotionally draining. I didn't realize that when things get crazy and hectic and stressful all I want and crave is carbs and sugar and lots of it. Nothing else will satisfy and that's not helpful when you are trying to lose weight and get healthy. On top of that I know cognitively that those things don't help and that my worries were still there and I felt worse because of the way my body is designed if I eat those things I go back to feeling like crap. So there I feel better after confessing so where do I go from here? Well, I think the best thing to do is get back up brush myself back off and get started again. This time with a plan in mind for moral support I know its out there I just tend to get stubborn and not want to ask for it. I think I can do everything and take care of everything myself. I am excited that my step came now I can do step aerobics and that's a form of exercise that burns a lot of calories that I also do enjoy. I think that is extremely important doing something that you actually want to do. I am also hoping that once I start exercising again more of those feel good chemicals will be released into my body and I won't be craving the bad stuff as much. I have to remind myself that nothing worthwhile is ever easy and that from time to time I'll struggle or not do so well but that I just need to get back up and try again. My habits didn't get bad overnight and I can't turn them around overnight. I just need to remember why I'm doing this and let that motivate me when things get really tough.