No need to panic

I was not going to really broadcast this out loud but after sharing this experience with my bishop this afternoon he encouraged me to share it. Many of you who read this blog know that I suffer from extreme anxiety. For years it was debilitating I could barely function. Then a couple of years ago I started taking an herbal supplement which has helped some but still it was a problem. Now, my anxiety is basically no more I still take my herbal supplement on occasion but I'm down to less than half of the amount I had been taking. The reason you may ask, I have found my happiness, peace and hope again. I had lost myself but now I am found and I have found my sense of peace and security in knowing that I am empowered and able to make my own choices. Yes, I am accountable for those choices but it is my life to live no one else's. I've grown so much feeling like I am in control of something. Also, a bigger part of it is my increased faith and knowledge in the Lord Jesus Christ and his role in my life. He loves me he knows me and he will help me. He suffered so that I don't have to. It has been through this Pathways program that these two things have come to pass. I've grown closer to the Lord and the Spirit as I've been studying the Book of Mormon. I've also been learning self reliance and self accountability as I've been in this program as well. I am so grateful again for a loving Father in Heaven and a loving bishop and stake president who listened to the promptings and helped me see it too. It feels so good to not panic anymore and to have my life back. 

Rome wasn't built in a day

After my last post I wish I could say I kept the momentum going but sadly I did not. I fell into a small pity party and just vegged a week in my chair. This has been really really discouraging lately just when I do great and have hit full speed something happens that just makes me slam on my brakes. I was just really frustrated. Fortunately, for me I have a loving Father in Heaven who knows this and knows me. The other night at my gathering for school we were discussing goals which was our topic for the week. We went over how to set better goals that are more effective. One of my classmates said she felt inspired to share her weight loss journey since she had recently shed almost 80lbs. I told her after class how grateful I was I needed to hear that. I told her of my struggles and how I just get so frustrated. She told me to just keep at it slow and steady and think about all the changes in my life I have been making already. She also reminded me to take my struggles to the Lord and ask for his help and guidance. Above all else she told me to be gentle on myself and remember Rome wasn't built in a day my weight didn't come on in a day and it won't come off that way either. Slow and steady will win the day. I am so grateful right now for her and a loving Father in Heaven who knows me and knows what I'm trying to achieve.